&*%#%@ ANgRy..and upset

Torrey and our Father, At his Graduation Ceremony.

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I am so mad, i am so hurt and i am so utterly pissed off that i could scream. Even better I could potentially punch someone square in the face repeatedly and not care about the damage it would cause.

I understand as a christian I shouldnt say or think those things but right now i am so MAD!!!!

My brother, Torrey Everett Rucker, age 21 has been deployed.

This is the email that was mass forwarded from my dad, who recieved this morning.

Dave,

Torrey deployed last night Georgia time around 9 or 10 pm. He is headed to Germany, from Germany he will go to Kuwait. He will stay in Kuwait for 2 weeks then, they will helicopter them into a town near South Baghdad or, they may get an order change while in Kuwait and be re-routed to Afghanistan.

He wanted me to notify you after he deployed and not before, he was very specific about that.

He said to tell you that he loved you and when he feels ready to contact you he will.

Madelyn

Madelyn, For all intensive purposes is my brothers adopted mother.

She had a son, named Pierson. Well unfortunately , Pierson commited suicide several years ago. He had had family problems quite frequently and was lost somewhere in his heart amidst all of his issues. (I pray hes in Heaven with our Lord)

Anyways, after Pierson died, Madelyn moved my brother into his room. And out of our lives. My brother felt responsible for the death for so long that he went along with the plan to comfort the family. Torrey began wearing his clothes, sleeping in his room, all of Piersons belongings became Torreys.

Torrey was the new "Pierson"

In the midst of all this Torrey slowly disowned us. Said we werent good enough and that because these people bought him a motorcycle, a truck, and did whatever he wanted they obviously were better suited to love him. They even bought him a house, coincidentally Torrey signed over his 400,000 dollar life insurance policy to their elementary age daughter(His sister)

He decided to join the military shortly after highschool. He is stationed in Goergia. When he comes home for visits or vacations, (the last one was over 6 weeks long) He wont see us or visit. He wont answer our calls and says that they are to do the same.

The last time i talked to my brother he said I was a disgrace for getting married at 18 and having children and that I should of done something with my life like Madelyn and Billy did.

He said everything that every happened to me I deserved because I never stopped things or that My kids were FU**** up like me.

He broke my Dads heart by telling him that "Billy" was a better dad. and How My sister was a loser too. Obviously we dont match up to these upstanding citizens.....

So after months of trying to get ahold of him finally i decided to contact The MOTHeR>

This was no help I left message after message and my email address and phone number multiple times. Instead of calling me back she waits a week and then sends the email.

I find it sort of imparative for us to know my brothers leaving before he leaves. Not after hes 1/2 way acrossed the country soon to face a possible death leaving behind so many broken relationships. And madelyn and Billy, They dont care. Theyve actually encouraged his hatred towards us making excuses that we just didnt know what we had in him, and shell pray for us.

AAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

i CALLED HER AFTER I RECIEVED THE EMAil AND HER DAUGHTER ANSWERED. ONCE SHE FOUND iT WAS ME THEY SAID THEY COULDNT TALK AND HUNG UP.

My brother is worth a 1/2 a million dollars to these people and a replacement son. So why would they care if he has his old family. The one that is impervious to anothers suffering and emotions is the bEST one right!!!!!!!!!!

I am so mad. I am so hurt they we find out after hes gone. NO apolgies or explanations, no remorse, or chances to fix whats been broken or unmendable.

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Please keep him in your prayers. My brother left as an Infantry Soldier for the US Army.

Lets hope he comes back one.

My brother at Christmas 07. One of the last time I seen him.

I seen him a couple months after this when he went to boot camp. And that was the last time.

When he came back for the last 3 visits, he hasnt told me.