Lately....

Its been awhile for me and Blogger. Infact Its been a while for alot of things. Lately, Geneo and I have been having our fill of road trips. We do love them. We are definitely a road trip family, I love the cool nights breeze and the way the sun looks in the morning coming over the desert. We have been to the river about 4 times. Cant beat it. Its a great family event and the kids absolutely love it.
Joshua and Savannah are in school(and have been since November) They love it. The school up here in Julian is incredible. The teachers and staff are incredibly welcoming, the principal opens the door to my truck when I pull up to help the kids jump out, The teachers call to tell me a weekly progress report, my kids are actively involved in so much. Savannah has recieved 2 awards for running 3 miles each. And will be recieving a super student award this thursday. Joshua has been Star of the week and Line leader. LOL. Thats a big deal for him. :)
So over all, The kids are doing great. Chey turns 3 on Friday, can you believe it and she cant wait to start school. When I help out in Joshuas class she sits in group and pretends shes part of the class.

As for Geneo and I, We couldnt have had a harder last year. We split up, Screwed up, Made mistakes, Got back together, and started looking for a new beginning. We decided that moving the kids and ourselves up to Julian would be a good idea. Get away from the drama, the gossip, and most of all the division. I watched more division happen in right in front of me with people i seen as friends then i could believe. And it wasnt just with me. It seemed like maybe saying good bye to that was a good idea.
Anyways, We found this cute little house and went for it. Well everyone, we survived the first winter. Its cold. lol. Weve have snow more times than i can count, frozen pipes, slippery driveway, no school for snow days. Rain, massive amounts of leaves..etc etc. But its been a blessing.
I have wonderful friends up here. I met a girl thru our kids class, and she has proven to be a blessing entirely. Her husband and mine are inseperable, and our children are all the same ages. (7 kids total)
Ive been asked to sell my pies at the farmers market in a permanent booth, but am still praying on that, also to sell my organic granola mixtures in a store up here) (Ive been told to contact one of the winerys to discuss business options and had a 20 yr pie maker for moms pies tell me that my pies stood up to and surpassed those that she makes everyday) I was flattered.
I will be joining in the pie contests, and cook offs up here. It has turned out to be an amazing move. The Lord has blessed not only our NEW beginning but out relationship, our kids, and our friends.
My marriage is in complete bliss. My husband and I have found what it is we had been looking for all along. And I owe all this to God.

Last year, I was bitter( and I am sorry to those that were effected by that), I was mad and hurt and fell apart quite regularly. I thought that when I had a falling out with a friend that I would hurt for a long time. And competing for her friendship seemed to me the only way to get back my sanity. To feel like I was still Miranda, Like I still belonged. But as time went on , I realized, I knew nothing about her. I knew the outside, and I knew the fascade. Becuz somewhere in the relationship we had, we seperated and we were no longer those same people.
And the more I tried the more I failed. Eventually all the praying and tormenting myself i did made sense. I was praying for this relationship back the way it was....I should have been praying for other ones to be healed. I prayed for my spot back in this circle, instead i had to stand on the outside of it, and that allowed me to look in on what I would have missed from inside it. The division between friends, the gossip about girls who didnt even know they were being gossiped about, the pointing and laughing (and believe me, as a christian woman we are not perfect but we are perfectly capable of judging, no matter how much we pretend we dont)
When it came down to it, some people were better off merely acquaintances, and some of you will always be friends, special and sincere, something that allows me everyday to say, :Lord,...I strive to love you that ways and to balance out my life for you".

Bottom line, I have found what was in front of me for so long. And I am so blessed. Without the Lords Guidance, would I still be there, would I still be pointing and laughing, judging the way someone raised their kids, or how they dressed them, or who they talked to. Would I still be the Miranda I was then instead of who I am now. I thank the situation, and I know God put me there for a reason....So that I could come out of it with my head held higher, loving and praying and enjoying the blessings. '
Hope everyone is doing well, thanks for the venting time,
I will update on the pie business and let you know how its going.